Why Should You Write?
If any given person were to be asked why they haven't written a book, most wouldn't have an answer. Honestly how do you answer something like that when it's never been a thought in your mind that you could potentially do something like that? May be you have been thinking about, maybe not. But if you have thought about this, is your answer to the above question that it would be too hard? You don't have what it takes?
You aren't wrong. I really don't think anyone has what it takes to be a writer or that it is easy.
Writing is hard work. Truly. It is quite possibly the hardest thing I have ever done. You sweat. You cry. You pull you hair out. You feel like a failure. Alcohol might even become your new best friend. It is hard. And it's not always for everyone.
So why should you write then?
Let me tell you a story.
When you put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard you are going to feel lost, confused even. You'll stop and ask yourself why the hell you are even doing this. It's pointless. Nothing will ever come of it. But you are very wrong, my friend. Very. This is normal. That first sentence is always the hardest. Always. There is no getting around this. At this point, though, it doesn't have to be perfect. It just has to be there.
The moment you write that first daunting sentence you are going to feel it. You'll feel that power running through your veins. 100 words will fly by, then 500, then 1,000, and with each passing word it will click. You will know it was meant to be. This is what you are supposed to do.
The wonderment will over wash you and make you ask yourself why you've never done this before.
The End. Those words will be written and your book will be done. Then you get the joys of editing your book. Doubt will creep its way right back in. the words will begin to read as if a kindergartner sat down with you and wrote your book. It happens to the best of us. It happens to Stephen King and any other famous writer, this I am sure of. This too shall pass. Trust me, it will.
You'll publish your book and sit back biting your nails while the reviews start coming in. The thought of reading one is unbearable. So don't do it. Don't read the reviews. There is no written rule that saws you have to read every single review that comes through. They say you can learn from your reviews, which you can, but for your sanity and well being of your mind, tread lightly with reviews. Because you are a badass who wrote a book! That's an accomplishment that not many have notch off their list.
Then a new day rolls in and a reader you didn't even know you had contacts you. They tell you that your book has gotten them through some of the roughest times. How your book made them laugh when they didn't want to. How your book allowed them to escape to another place, if only for temporarily. You will cry at this moment... okay, maybe that part is just me, but you will feel an emotion. It can be overwhelming. But so, so, so worth it.
It's hard work, like I said. But just think about this for a moment. After you are dead and gone, your words will still be living in this world. 30, 50, 100 years later your books will still be on this earth for people to read. Now isn't that a realization. You may never make a bestselling list, or win a literary award, but the accomplishment of writing a book on your own is still unbelievably worth it.
So when you think you aren't capable of writing a book, I want you to just try it. Just to see if the shoe fits. Don't let doubt swallow you whole, don't quit. We need your words.
I hope somewhere in my words, I have given you the encouragement you needed or maybe even got the thought rolling around in your brain. It's start, right?
Good luck and if you need a shoulder to cry on, my links are below and I will always have time to chat and help you through your weakest times. I am also here if you have any questions along the way. Any and all questions will be answered to the best of my knowledge.
When Your Heart BleedsWords Are Born
This is what happens to me when I listen to music. My heart bleeds. Funny I say that, right? But with every song, every lyric, I become consumed by it. I feel the lyrics wrap themselves around me and literally suck the life out of me. When it ends a whoosh of breath releases from me. Every. Single. Time.
The moment I sit down in my chair the music is on. Most of the time I turn on a playlist for whatever book I am writing. This helps my words come to life. I find songs that relate to what is happening in my books and I listen to them. I take in the lyrics. Then I feel the heartbreak. Lets face it, I like to write heartbreak. So in order to make that the best I can, I need to put myself in it. If that makes sense. Now, I don't write the lyrics as my own, obviously. I just listen and make a story out of that.
Lets take The Sacred Truth for instance. When I was writing this book I searched high and low for new artists. I had a story to tell and I needed the song. I finally found it with an up and coming artist by the name of Carter Winter. When I heard this lyrical genius I fell in love. Hard.
Some Kind of Fire is the song that is both my Nolan and Jenna.Every time I hear it now I get a teensy bit emotional.
Even when I'm not writing this happens. I often tell people I speak through music. Sending my husband and my mom songs that make me think of them. Or when the bad times fall and I need to express myself. It allows me to get through the bad times. It gives me the excuse I need to vent, to cry.
This is what music does for me.
From when I was a little girl, I've always depended on it. So it's not crazy off the wall that it shows up in my writing.
What does music do for you?
I am so honored that the AllAuthor team so graciously wanted to interview little ole me! I absolutely loved the questions asked! Check them out below!
Where did you grow up and how would you describe your childhood self in a few words? How would you describe yourself now? Would you say a lot has changed?I grew up in a small farm town in central Illinois. I was a very shy child, I liked to sit back and watch everyone else. I also loved to draw and create things. I think I am still the same person as I was when I was little. I am still shy to an extent, but just a bit more sociable. With writing now, I get to create the things I used to draw with words.
Did you ever like taking English/literature in school? What was the first thing you ever wrote and did anyone else read it besides you?I love my English classes in high school and college. The first story I ever wrote was when I was 10 years old. It was a story about aliens, the only person to read it was my sister.
What does being an author mean to you? If you weren't an author, is there another profession you think you could excel at?Being an author means so very much to me. First, it is my way to teach others through my words, it's a way or me to write my struggles and allow others to know they aren't alone. Honestly, I don't think I would ever excel nearly as well with any other profession as I do with being an author.
Random question: what is your favourite room in a house and what do you think that says about your personality?The kitchen is my favorite room in the house. It's typically the center of every home and it's a place everyone can gather. It's a place that allows me to watch and never miss a beat.
Describe your experiences collaborating and writing "Timeless Ever After" with other authors? What is an important lesson you learned from this and which author(s) would you love to write with again?This was an amazing experience. Every other brought something different to the table and it was especially great learning different ways of doing things in the self publishing world. I would love to write with them all again, honestly. Each author is fresh with their voice and it's inspiring.
What inspired the story behind "Copperfield Lane"? Are a lot of your stories based on true events or made up ones?What inspired Copperfield Lane? A lot of things. Life, I suppose being the most proficient answer. If you are in a relationship or a marriage, you can understand the rough patches that some couples go through. I wanted to bring those to the surface, I wanted to provide comfort that it doesn't always have to end. Most of my books have some aspect of real life in them. I just add enough twists and turns to make it fiction.
In what ways do you relate to Selena and Law (Copperfield Lane) and their love story?I relate them because I've been there. I've been Selena where she doesn't feel like she's moving in life anymore. I've also been Lawson where I know what is happening but I don't want to face it. But the love those two have is something that comes from my heart, because I too have that. So to answer the question, I relate in many ways to them.
When do you usually think up new ideas for books? What are some tricks you have for keeping your stories creative and not forgetting the good ideas?When I'm doing dishes is usually when all my ideas come flooding to me. I typically zone out when I am standing there washing plate after plate and live in my fictional world for a while. Then when I am done I go to my notebook and write down what just happened. That makes it stay more alive for me and allows me not to forget the good stuff. I also have pieces of scarp paper all over with ideas or songs that sparked a certain feeling in me.
Which book of yours did you have the most fun writing? What was a memorable experience you had writing The Tactical Men series?I had the most fun writing Copperfield Lane. It was something that was brand new and different than anything else I had ever written. The most memorable experience for writing my Tactical Men series was the bedroom scene with Rori and Jenna in A Dance Worth Dancing, that is one scene that still makes me giggle to this day.
Do you ever reread or edit or go through your stories once you're done with them? In what ways does an editor help and how valuable is a good editor?I read them at least three more times before I send it to my editor. My first read through is where I do a lot of my structural edits. With that though, I am not an editor, so with having my editor-who is amazing, I might add-- read through it just as many times as I do on her own is so valuable to the work. As an author, I want the best product I can have out there. Typically it takes a month all said and done for a book of mine to be done with the editing stage. I'm okay with that type of thoroughness.
Is there anything you edited out of the book ""? Have you ever erased an entire character because they didn't fit with the flow of the book?I've deleted a lot throughout all of my books. With The Sacred Truth I deleted whole chapters. The book took a different direction and resulted in me writing it over three times. However, I have never deleted a character.
What is something you achieved in the year 2017 that you're especially proud of?One thing I am proud of is progressively gaining more readers. I think in a way we are all still learning in this author world, so when I learn new things and start implementing them into my own business and seeing progress, that excites me.
What is a career dream for you? Where do you see yourself in 10 years?A career dream of mine is to become a little more established with being an author. I'd like to gain a lasting audience. I see myself in 10 years doing what I do now, but with more knowledge.
In This Life...
Many times through the course of an authors career we are asked what our daily life is like. Well, to be honest, mine is chaos.
Beautiful chaos. For some reason this allows the reader to feel connected to the author. But as I sat down to write my daily life, I realized just how much time I spend working.
I think we forget that we are supposed to be living while we muddle through every to-do list, marking off every task. When was the list time you took a day for yourself? Went shopping, laid in bed all day, took a soak in the tub for hours? When?
If you're anything like me you sitting there thinking really hard and coming up empty handed. Again, if you're also like me, you came up with a date you did that but can also list off every task you completed that day. It's not in my nature to sit idly. I have to be doing something. I live strictly off routine and structured lists. It's slightly pathetic, but I've grown so accustomed to it that if it is not on my list I won't do it.
But do I truly live? Do I go out and do anything for myself that has nothing to do with my work?
The answer that is no.
Constantly I am trying to beat one more deadline, researching marketing, driving myself to the point of exhaustion. I am sure much of you are the same. Let's not forget that we also have to keep our homes looking decent enough they don't call CPS on us. We also have to take care of our tiny humans, our furry babies, our spouses. The list goes on and on with our responsibilities. It has become so important to me to finish every darn thing on my plate that I become angry when I don't finish them. I'll berate myself mentally because I could have spent less time doing something else to finish my list, my other work.
Why do I do that to myself?
Maybe it's just me when I say this, but I think we need to stop and smell the roses. Not proverbially, I mean literally. Stop and look at the beautiful scenery that makes up our land, wherever you may be.
We need to take a deep breath and reconnect ourselves. We need to work, yes. We need to handle all of our responsibilities, yes. However, we can enjoy life while we do it. Many of us get so focused on the hustle we see nothing else. We're blinded by it. At times, there is nothing wrong with this. We need that hustle in our life to keep us dedicated to our goals and dreams.
But, take that time. Take that trip you've been putting off. Take the afternoon and go shopping like you've been saying you'll do for months now. One day that opportunity won't be there, then what while we do?
Life's too short to do nothing but work. To do nothing but beat the next deadline. One of the things we are taught at a young age is to love what we do. When we are constantly chasing the next big thing we lose our focus, our passion. I never want to see that.
I want to love what I do for a very long time and I hope that you do, too.
So while this is probably a bit jumbled and of course, I'm only speaking about myself, I hope you too will spend that extra time taking care of you. It's the only way to truly prosper.
Today we are interviewing the wonder Nanea Knott. She is a paranormal erotic romance author with a flare for other genres as well. Nanea was also born and raised in Hawaii. Maybe she can finally get me the hook up with Alex O'Loughlin. Ha! I kid, I kid.
Let's get to the interview!
Q: Do you think someone could be a writer if they don’t feel emotions strongly?
A: Yes. The skill of a writer is to describe a person, place or situation so vividly that the reader is swept into the story to live and breathe the action. A good writer can make the experience authentic and real. Lack of having strong emotions doesn’t necessarily mean a writer is incapable of creating that scenario. Admittedly, it might be more difficult in some instances, but it’s not impossible.
Q:Does writing energize you or exhaust you?
A: It does both some days. I often wake up with the next scene of my WIP in my head, and I can’t wait to get started. Other days, I stare at the text, usually when I’m editing, and feel a sense of dread solidify in the pit of my stomach. I hate editing.
Q: What is the first book that made you cry?
A: I don’t remember. There have been a lot of books that made me cry including some of my own. I’m one of those people who sometimes tears up at sweet commercials. *rolls eyes*
Q: In your opinion, what are common traps for aspiring writers?
A: I think the biggest thing is taking it too seriously or not seriously enough. Some writers are so concerned with every detail of their career that they are beating themselves to death with the Baseball Bat of Perfection. There are factors we can’t control. Move on and do the best you can to work around it. They, myself included, can work themselves into a state of paralysis from all the micromanagement their trying to do. The other half of that is not taking the time to listen to those who have walked the path ahead of you and do what they say. Some authors think by reinventing the wheel, they’re going to take the literary world by storm. Good luck with that. Learn as much as you can, and keep moving forward. Rome wasn’t built in a day.
Q: Do you try more to be original or to deliver to readers what they want?
A:I’m doing my best to strike the sweet spot in between. I know some people write only what is selling at the moment and they jump on that bandwagon as fast as they can, and God bless them. I also know authors who think themselves so original and poignant that only the intellectual elite would ever be able to comprehend the heights of their genius. Whatever. I write what I like. Period. I sometimes write to the market as a challenge to myself. Every project I take on is a challenge to myself to become a better writer. That doesn’t mean I don’t care about my readers, I do, but I always write what I like to read. I’m fortunate that my readers are good with it.
Q: What does literary success look like to you?
A: A cabana on a floating platform in the Bahamas. I’m kidding. Success for me would be financial security. I’m not looking for a big house or fancy cars or anything like that. I would like to pay bills. I want to travel more. At some point, I would love to do a reader appreciation event and have the readers come and hang out with me. I’m also big on community service, I would like to pair up with organizations that truly do help their communities. If I could do those things with money from my books, that would be the height of success for me.
Q:How many unpublished and half-finished books do you have?
A: Oh dear God. Eighteen that I can think of, there are probably more.
Q: What’s the most difficult thing about writing characters from the opposite sex?
A: Getting the dialogue right. My editor has told me on occasion something to the effect of “No man would say that, EVER.”
Q: How do you select the names of your characters?
A:From real people usually, I find a name I like either from someone I met or read about and I write their name down. I don’t ever use the first and the last name together in a story. It’s usually the first name, and I use someone else’s last name, or I use something from a site that gives the origins of names. I just recently found the name generator in Scrivener. It’s very useful
Q: Do you hide secrets in your books that only a few people will find?
A:No, I’m not that clever. Haha. I’m pretty straightforward when I write. I know it’s common in some genres to do things like that and if my writing were more complex, it’s something I would think about for my diehard fans, but I don’t do it at this time. *Contemplates new series*
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We also have the privilege of hearing from one of Nanea's characters!
Name and where we can find you – I’m Marissa Davis. The first time
you hear of me is when I work with Willow Harris, another succubus in
the book Remember Me.
Q: What is the one thing you want but can’t have right now?
A: My mate. It’s rare that a sex demon finds the one person who will
remember having sex with them. Our partners forget us the next
morning. The chances of my finding him are next to nothing but hope
Q: What do you do for a living? Why?
A: I’m publicly known as a rich socialite in Seattle. I work with
organizations, mostly doing fundraisers. Privately, I’m also the head of
the local Sex Demon population in the Puget Sound Area. I maintain my
public image to help conceal my private activities. When I make unusual
requests, people don’t think anything of it. They chalk it up to the
eccentricities of the rich. My private responsibilities I willingly took on
as an atonement of sorts for my errors. I work very hard to make sure
other sex demons don’t make the same mistakes I did. My arrogance
cost someone dear to me their life. I can’t let it happen again.
Q: Do you ever struggle with inner conflict?
A: Inner, outer and everything in between. I live according to a delicate
balance that threatens to crush me or someone I know every moment I
draw breath. There are times when life and death decisions must be
made, and often they are made by me. The consequences of those
decisions weigh heavily on me.
Q: Five years ago, did you see yourself where you are today?
A: No, I was living the carefree life of the wife of a rich man. It was my
error in marrying him that put me in the position I now hold. Five years
from now, I will probably still be here doing what I can for the local sex
Q: Why do you think your author wrote your book?
A: My author hasn’t written my book yet. It seems she only writes about
those who have found their mates. I can understand why. It’s such a rare
thing that it’s cause for much celebration. Having the story told makes
sense. Perhaps when the day arrives, and I’m fortunate to have found my
mate, I’ll have a book of my own. Until then, I fulfill my role in the lives
of others and help them find their happiness.
Q: Tell me what your day is like.
A: The first thing I do is to set tasks for the team of sex demons that work
for me. They’ll call me with progress reports throughout the day. That
way I can be flexible with plans in case something goes wrong. Then I
have scheduled meetings with those hoping to gain my cooperation on
something. Sometimes that’s local politicians, other socialites or groups
of influence. I usually eat lunch at my desk after ordering food from the
cafeteria in the basement of my building. The afternoon and evening are
usually taken up with whatever I need to do to keep the sex demon
population hiding in plain sight. One of those things might include
sending a succubus to a hospital with the task of influencing an
employee to delete medical records.
Q: Off the top of your head, what are three things you would wish for
A: A vacation to a place where no one knows my name. A truly
comfortable pair of heels. The ability to completely dismantle the
organization called Humans First.
This or That
1. Beach or Mountains – Mountains
2. Steak or Chicken – Steak
3. Car or Truck – Car
4. Tattoos or Piercings – None, please
5. T-Shirt or Button Up – Button Up
6. Marvel or DC Comics – Marvel
7. Skydiving or Bungee Jumping – Skydiving
8. Trip or Staycation –Trip
9. Dogs or Babies – Babies
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One of my goals for 2018 is to write more reviews for the books I read. Here we go! Review number one of the year.
Kristen Ashley's The Hookup
2018 started off with a bang. Seriously! I picked this one because she absolutely one of my favorite authors and never even think twice when it comes to her books. I knew going in that this one was going to be slightly different than her others, because she warned us readers about it a bit. There was going to be some feels.
I knew this.
But then I was reading and I thought to myself, this isn't so bad. Johnny Gamble was charing Eliza and the rest of us women while he was at it. Things were going so damn good
Then it happened.
Bonnie Raitt comes on.
I won't give that part away, but gosh, my heart broke. I sat there crying with Iz wondering how we would ever survive this.
I was a bit jaded at this point in the book. Johnny Gamble wasn't my favorite person. However, that changed and it changed quickly.
There was so much heat in this book it was HAWT! Lord have mercy, someone grab the fire extinguisher, that hot. It just the right amount of sweet, angst, and love wrapped up tight in one. It is perfect!
Like I said before Kristen's books are a non discussion, I will purchase them all. This one though? It's at the top of my list. (Nobody can take Tack and Tate's spots)
Johnny Gamble is life.
"She shouldn't have looked for dreamers. She should have found a man who knows all the different types of motor oil."
Title: Rewrite Our Ending
Author: JL Long
Cover Designer: Kovers by Kari
Release Date: February 1st, 2018
We've said our vows. For better or for worse.
She thinks she could so easily take my place.
I will not be defeated.
I am prepared.
Prepared to fight for our ending.
Because I am going to rewrite it.
Add to your Goodreads TBR: http://bit.ly/2kgtB8F
About the Author
JL grew up in a small town in Illinois. Not to be mistaken for Chicago.
She currently resides in Southern Georgia with her husband, three children,
and their fur-babies, Buster Malone and Cali Girl.
She has lived an adventurous life…doing
just that, living. Dream it. Do it. Live it.
JL is a hopeless romantic, who loves seeing love
unwind before her eyes. When she can’t see that for herself with other people in real life,
she writes it or reads it. Writing has been a part of her life since she was a little girl,
along with an avid reader.
She will continue to write until the pen will not allow it anymore.
Facebook Link: http://on.fb.me/1QBq13o
Author Goodreads Link: https://www.goodreads.com/jllong
Amazon Author Page Link: http://amzn.to/1Y334vQ
Author Group Link - http://bit.ly/2gvoB13
Website Link: http://www.jllong.net/
★★★ Published Books ★★★
Copperfield Lane (Copperfield Lane Book One)
A noun that describes two people that are connected to each other in ways only our souls
understand. You can feel it in your heart, the way the strings tighten whenever that person is
around. The way you are happier, at your best when they are near. Whether this be a friend
or a lover, there is a soulmate for everyone in this extraordinary world.
I found the love of my life on Copperfield Lane. He is my best friend. He is my lover.
He is my soulmate.
The flames are burning within us but the hold we have on each other is going up in smoke.
What happens after you get your happily ever after? Does love strengthen or does it
smolder to ash?
Buy Link: https://books2read.com/u/mdNwYw
A Dance Worth Dancing (Tactical Men Book One)
Love is a strange thing. It can heal, it can hurt and it can be astonishing.
For Rori and Colt, it's a mixture of all of these things.
Rori is a single mom who is looking for love in all the wrong places.
Until one fateful night her hero comes to her without her even knowing it. She has too
much at stake to risk a dance on the wild side.
Colt isn’t the type to settle down. He’s been there, done that and was left high and dry.
Colt’s just surviving by throwing himself into his work on SWAT and living the simple
bachelor life with his dog Tank. Or at least it was simple, before Colt’s greatest demons
come crawling to the surface.
Can they pull through when it seems like the universe is doing everything in its power to
pull them apart? Can love really conquer all?
Buy Link: books2read.com/u/4Do9Kk
The Sacred Truth (Tactical Men Book Two)
The only failures in life are the mistakes you don’t learn from.
It was only supposed to be casual. Then I fell for her. Falling head first in love, only to
have fear rip it out from underneath me. I severed us with my destructive words. Correcting
all the mistakes I’ve made is what I have to do, I just don’t know how.
She does. She always knows what to do.
Buy Link: https://books2read.com/u/boYM99
Author Interview with C.L. Knopf
Today we are showcasing C.L. Knopf and one of her characters. Check out both interviews below!
1. Do you think someone could be a writer if they don’t feel emotions
-I think they could still be a writer. They may struggle more that the
ones that feel emotions strongly but I believe it can be
2. Does writing energize you or exhaust you?
-It does both……most of the time it feels energizing except when
3. What is the first book that made you cry?
-I have never cried reading a book. I did cry writing my own.
4. In your opinion, what are common traps for aspiring writers?
-Having unrealistic goals. Thinking everyone out there is just
waiting for your book release. Writers block…..that’s a big one.
5. Do you try more to be original or to deliver to readers what they
-I try to stay true to myself. I am open to suggestions for sure but it
has to feel right to me at the end of the day.
6. What does literary success look like to you?
-Seeing my books in bookstores, maybe becoming a household
name…..that would be amazing.
7. How many unpublished and half-finished books do you have?
-Currently I just have one. I try very hard not to have a ton of
projects going at the same time.
8. What’s the most difficult thing about writing characters from the
-To write them without plugging in female traits…..thank god for
beta readers. Saved me a time or two.
9. How do you select the names of your characters?
-I picture the character in my mind and the name usually follows
10. Do you hide secrets in your books that only a few people will
-Not so much secrets but some of my main characters bear a ton of
similarities with myself when it comes to events, personality and
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Name and where we can find you – Callum Lawson - Bali
1. What is the one thing you want but can’t have right now?
2. What do you do for a living? Why?
-Watersports instructor at a resort in Bali. Why? Because I’m living
3. Do you ever struggle with inner conflict?
-More now than ever.
4. Five years ago, did you see yourself where you are today?
-In a way I did. I came to Bali five years ago to start my new life.
Then I met a girl. That’s where the inner conflict comes in.
5. Why do you think your author wrote your book?
-She wanted me to experience a love that I didn’t think existed.
6. Tell me what your day is like.
-I get up, throw on my swim trunks and resorts shirt and head to
work, which to me isn’t work. Usually I would teach my classes,
hang out with my mate Espen at the beach bar. When Hannah was
here my days were consumed with her.
7. Off the top of your head, what are three things you would wish for
-Hannah, Answers, Solution
This or That
1. Beach or Mountains – Beach
2. Steak or Chicken – Steak
3. Car or Truck – Car
4. Tattoos or Piercings – Neither
5. T-Shirt or Button Up – T-shirt
6. Marvel or DC Comics – Marvel
7. Skydiving or Bungee Jumping – Skydiving
8. Trip or Staycation – Trip
9. Dogs or Babies – Dogs
How I Failed NaNoWriMo
I have failed you, Literary Gods, failed you so hard.
National Novel Writing Month.
The month of November came and went and so did NaNo. I was so amped to participate this year. I made charts, I had all my goals in line, outlines --which I never do--, and I had rewards, 'cause who doesn't a love a reward. I had everything you could think of planned out and ready to go.
But I forgot one key element. I forgot to NaNo.
The first two weeks were solid. I wrote every day. Exceeded my goals and was rather impressed with myself. Then I slipped. I forgot to write one day. That one day turned into another, and then another.
I'm sure you are wondering how the heck I forgot to write. I'm a writer for crying out loud.
Beats me, to be honest.
Although deep down I know it's the pressure that got to me. But just because I didn't achieve 50,000 words by the end of November doesn't mean I suck as a writer.
No. It just means I have to realize my boundaries when it comes to my writing. I can't feel forced, yes, sometimes the force to proceed is needed. What I mean is that with everyone doing NaNo I felt like I had to exceed. I had to do good... because everyone else was. It started to weigh me down. I got so far inside my head that it prevented me from actually writing.
I've done NaNo for the past three years. Each year I've failed, I'll add. The first two years I just didn't try. I was still learning as a writer --still am, really-- and just didn't want to put the time in. Blah! I'm a butthead sometimes.
But this year was different. Half way through I came to the realization that NaNo just isn't the fit for me. That doesn't mean I will stop trying every November.
It just means I am going to do it my way. Modifying it to my writing style. Suppose this wouldn't really be NaNoWriMo then, eh? And I'm also going to redo NaNo in December.
I mean, obviously it won't be the traditional NaNo. But I plan to set my own goals I know I'll be able to obtain. I encourage y'all to join me on this.
Well, that's it for this blog post! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
I feel the rope tightening around my neck. My nails digging into my skin trying to loosen it. You pull tighter. My breath becoming shallower and shallower. You don't care.
You did this.
You took me.
You tied me up.
Put me on display. Humiliated me. You whisper, "I'm sorry. This is the way it has to be." I shake my head.
Desperate for peace, relief.
Desperate for you to let me go.
I'm just a number. A figure in your well placed hidden plan. You move about the world with practiced ease. People kneel to you, people respect you. I respected you. You lead a life that most would love to have until they find out who you really are.
You're a monster. A monster that you keep concealed so well.
I trusted you. Trusted you to not hurt me.
You hurt me.
I believed you.
I believed that someone like you could never hurt someone like me. I guess you never truly know someone.
I can feel my body growing numb now. My will to fight is gone now.
You won now.
You always win.
My body slackens, my eyes closing. Before I drift to my peace, I feel the blade against my skin. A blade I know will be the last thing I feel. This I know for sure for you told me. Telling me you would watch my limp body almost to the peak of demise. Only then you would sliver your hate through my body, watching the crimson wetness stain the floor.
So delicate, like a flower, you wrap me in your arms and let the rope fall from around my neck.
I sigh in defeat. The closeness of my death so near I could taste it. A welcoming feeling.
Take me away from a man I loved and trusted.
Never to be reached again.
Never to feel again.
Copyright © by JL Long 2016